Storms

Lately my life has been navigating in the middle of a storm. Being a christian we are taught to trust the Lord in all of our circumstances and yet most of the time we too become like the disciples who felt stranded on the boat and feared sinking that night. Mark 4 35-41
I don't trust that Jesus is with me at times like these and I lose my faith!

When I first became a born again christian I had a hard time understanding when people would tell me that all is in the Lord's timing. What is his timing? God I am not ready for this! Help! Why? It's not fair! Wait, I am not ready for these things to occur and yet they come at me fast!
This is how I reacted during these times. Now is a little different. I roll with the punches a lot better and know that a lesson is always in order during your storm.

Now my new struggle is with understanding the saying that God won't give you more than what you can handle. That saying is testing me to the limit! I feel like I can not handle the problem and the sadness that has come at me in the past two weeks. To see a person you love not care for themselves and try to take advantage of your kindness.

At the beginning of this I wanted to help with a loving and giving heart and see this person grow. Now they go on their own and not accept council, advice, mentoring and love. I just pray that all goes well for them and the new baby!

Feeling Down!

Today has been such a crazy day for me and its finally quiet here in the house. I can finally hear myself think or even think for that matter. My children are who I love the most besides the Lord and my husband but sometimes I question if I am really the best mom for them. Do any other moms feel like this? It's like they don't respond to me. My older boy is giving me such a hard time with that attitude and from what I hear it is just beginning. God help me when he hits the teenage years!

Then I went to the chiropractor because I have been having lots of lower back pain and he told me that I need to lose the weight because its affecting my knees. I am very petite but I have gained a lot of weight over the years especially with the pregnancies. So, this will be take 1000 in my struggle to lose the WEIGHT!