That night some shepherds were in the fields outside the village, guarding their flocks of sheep. Suddenly, an angel of the Lord appeared among them, and the radiance of the Lord's glory surrounded them. "Don't be afraid!" he said. "I bring you good news of great joy for everyone! The Savior-yes, the Messiah, the Lord-has been born tonight in Bethlehem, the city of David! And this is how you will recognize him: You will find a babe lying in a manger, wrapped snugly in strips of cloth!"

Suddenly, the angel was joined by a vast host of others- the armies of heaven- praising God :

"Glory to God in the highest heaven,

and peace on earth to all whom God favors."

Luke 2 8-14

Storms

Lately my life has been navigating in the middle of a storm. Being a christian we are taught to trust the Lord in all of our circumstances and yet most of the time we too become like the disciples who felt stranded on the boat and feared sinking that night. Mark 4 35-41
I don't trust that Jesus is with me at times like these and I lose my faith!

When I first became a born again christian I had a hard time understanding when people would tell me that all is in the Lord's timing. What is his timing? God I am not ready for this! Help! Why? It's not fair! Wait, I am not ready for these things to occur and yet they come at me fast!
This is how I reacted during these times. Now is a little different. I roll with the punches a lot better and know that a lesson is always in order during your storm.

Now my new struggle is with understanding the saying that God won't give you more than what you can handle. That saying is testing me to the limit! I feel like I can not handle the problem and the sadness that has come at me in the past two weeks. To see a person you love not care for themselves and try to take advantage of your kindness.

At the beginning of this I wanted to help with a loving and giving heart and see this person grow. Now they go on their own and not accept council, advice, mentoring and love. I just pray that all goes well for them and the new baby!

Feeling Down!

Today has been such a crazy day for me and its finally quiet here in the house. I can finally hear myself think or even think for that matter. My children are who I love the most besides the Lord and my husband but sometimes I question if I am really the best mom for them. Do any other moms feel like this? It's like they don't respond to me. My older boy is giving me such a hard time with that attitude and from what I hear it is just beginning. God help me when he hits the teenage years!

Then I went to the chiropractor because I have been having lots of lower back pain and he told me that I need to lose the weight because its affecting my knees. I am very petite but I have gained a lot of weight over the years especially with the pregnancies. So, this will be take 1000 in my struggle to lose the WEIGHT!

H1N1 Part 2

Things here at home have gotten worse with this H1N1. My boy's cough has gotten worse and now he is wheezing, so he was put on Flovent. The doctor said if he doesn't improve or gets a new fever it might have turned into pneumonia. Then I woke up yesterday feeling achy and my throat was killing me! When we got to the pediatrician's office she notice how sick I looked. She was nice to check me out too. She gave me a strep test and it was negative. Then she said I might have gotten the H1N1 so she prescribed me the Tamiflu.

When I got home I had a headache, chills, aches, fever and just wanted to sleep. My husband was great help and took the kids to get some movies so I could relax. He then made me some soup and it was good. About an hour later I began vomiting. I thought I was going to die! He called our doctor and she proceeded to tell him that I might be having an allergic reaction to the Tamiflu therefore to stop it immediately. What the heck? I thought this was suppose to make me feel better!

This morning I feel a little better but my head still hurts and my body is achy. Now my husband is the one feeling sick. To be continued.........

The H1N1 has invaded our home!

All over the news all you hear is about the H1N1 and how dangerous it is. Well the flu has invaded my house and my two little ones were the ones that got sick. By the grace of God, to them it was like a really bad cold.
My boy got the most fever and was not given the Tamiflu because he had pass the first 48 hours with no medical care. I honestly just thought he had a cold but since the fever was not letting up we went to see the doctor. At first when he told me it was positive I was like OH NO! I tried not to freak out and stay calm.

He began to explain to me about the other family members that were at greater risk. I then began to get worried for my husband and daughter. My husband has a history of asthma and my daughter was premature. They were the ones most at risk, so my husband was put on the medicine but my daughter was not. The doctor just told me to keep and eye on her if any of the symptoms showed up. The next day we were back at the doctor because she was now the one with the fever. She was then put on the Tamiflu and is getting better.

My advice to all the moms is stay calm and get medical attention as soon as you can. Since my boy got sick over the weekend I just waited for the office to open on Monday so I kind of do feel guilty for waiting so long. So follow your motherly instinct and be alert to the signs. Again, it is very important to not freak out if someone in your household does get sick. Use lots of hand sanitizer and masks.

For You

I watch you sleep and want to kiss you.

Your face is the same and yet it looks so much older.

The years have passed, I can see them on you.

Oh, how I still love you!

Our teenage love has blossomed to more than words can say.

My life with you has been a whirlwind.

Love!

Passion!

Friendship!

Even Hate!

But as you sleep here next to me I still know that I love you.

You are the one that gives me air.

You are the one that calms my storm.

You are the one that I love!

Embracing My Climb

Being a mom is my full time job but there are times in my life that I think about the what ifs. Life in general is a constant battle with oneself and others around you. A family is layered with multiple personalities, problems, triumphs, sadness, struggles and at times chaotic. I want to just give up and run away where I can just be the woman in my what ifs!

Then remorse sets in and I comprehend that no one can Love my family like I do! No one can tend to them like I do. I realize that I am wife and mother to this family.

So, the other day my children and I watched the Hannah Montana movie and that song The Climb resonated in my heart. Sometimes you get a reality check from the least expected source but it is always at the right timing!

That is why I know that it should not be about what is waiting for me on the other side but on how I climb my mountain. I have to embrace myself, my motherhood, my life!

Autumn of Love

Life at my house has been complicated! Things here have been somewhat crazy and that's why I have been away for a while. My patience and faith have been tested.

On a different note, tomorrow is the beginning of Autumn and it is my favorite season! I love the temperature, the way the trees look in all their splendid colors, having fun apple picking with my kids, and knowing that God has created this beautiful season just for me.

All my children, I mean just my two oldest have been born on this season. My baby girl was supposed to be born in late October but she was premature. As you can see, fall has a special place in my heart. Also, my husband and I began our friendship during this time and is still going strong!

Where is my DNA?

It has been a crazy few weeks trying to adjust to the new schedule. School has started and homework battles began. I'm wishing that my studious Gene has been inherited to my child and that is just dormant. I feel like the little sucker just laughs at me every time I get upset about the homework. I want to shake my kids brain and make that little monster come out and apologize for all the grief it has caused!

my body is achy
my soul is hurting

my head is buzzing
my heart is thumping

all these feelings all these sounds

leave me alone i want to keep sleeping
the night has turned to day

another day of the same old monotony

New Day

Wow, I can't believe the new school year is already here. Today I woke up to the sound of a brand new alarm clock/ticking bomb! Last night we opened it and looked over the instructions. According to them the beeping sound would increase gradually but they failed to mention how much it sounded like a bomb. It scared the crap out of us!

Confused about blogging.

I've been trying to find out more on how to blog but I'm somewhat confused. I need blogging for dummies! Anyways, I'll give it a shot. Its late here at home and I'm trying to gather my thoughts in how to make this work. I had a hard day and I'm tired but not sleepy.

Just today I went to see
the breeze come to me

I felt my hair wiggle with swirls and giggles

My children laughing and playing
and like always not sharing

When will it stop?
All the bickering and
crying

Soon I hope
before the next summer breeze

Hi, I'm new to the blogging game.

Hello, to anyone and everyone who comes across this blog. I'm new at this and hope I can learn and experience this new world to me to the fullest. I have been meaning to do this for a while but never got the nerve to do it. Now it's my time to do something different and not be so afraid of new things or the what ifs.