tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41986778045766697782024-03-14T07:18:45.069-05:00Just because I have to express my thoughts.I want this to be my little oasis where I can escape from my routine. Being a sahm has been my fulltime job for the past 5 years, though it has been wonderful it has also been difficult.
I need more time for myself and having something to do besides chores is what brought me here. I want to make new friends, learn new things, experience life in a new way.
I love to converse so this is a new outlet for me to do that!purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-11193075533790112392010-06-25T00:05:00.003-05:002010-06-27T21:46:01.891-05:00<span style="color:#6600cc;">I have a heart full of tears.</span> <div><div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">I have eyes that can not produce them.</span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">I'm all cried out!</span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">Because I can not cry </span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">they</span><span style="color:#6600cc;"> are drowning me.</span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">I swallow my pain </span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">as my pain swallows me.</span></div><div><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></div><br /><br /><div><a href="http://peebugg.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/tear-drop.jpg"></a></div></div></div>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-8635233246061919542010-06-12T23:50:00.002-05:002010-06-16T17:08:40.133-05:00Love Came Down<p><object style="BACKGROUND-IMAGE: url(http://i2.ytimg.com/vi/ifeJRC5lvhs/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ifeJRC5lvhs&hl=en_US&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ifeJRC5lvhs&hl=en_US&fs=1" width="480" height="295" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object></p><p>I have fallen in love with this song. From the moment I heard it, it has made my heart flutter with such happiness and peace. I close my eyes and I can truly feel my self in heaven worshiping the King. Brian Johnson has such a wonderful anoiting with his voice which touched my heart with such heavenly presence. </p>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-83267821590593221692010-06-01T15:58:00.004-05:002010-06-01T16:07:38.046-05:00Thanks for the Reminder!My life has been a real roller coaster. I sometimes contemplate the idea of writing a book. Ha! If I only had the time. But yes, I sometimes think that I would like to write about all the things that have happen to me.<br />Like today I was once again reminded that no one loves me like God! My mother is a nice woman who at the same time thinks she can tell me what I can and can not do. She makes me feel like my life has not been to her admiration and that her friends daughters have better and most prosperous than mine.<br />Enough! Leave me alone. I may not have the best things, but I do have what a lot of people don't have and that is my Lord Jesus!purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-8400967409095693672010-05-03T17:04:00.005-05:002010-05-03T17:27:43.482-05:00Yup, birds and bees time.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhG9I28o6nJ8bgopa9nJffR8fzVr0DMkE3luP0CBveAVk_AFL0Waa_5qmQZuK4T-C5dHGbq3XKZyXL4lcENEwwzCgoQXzznSoY0geRjXhjwuHuZtHSk3ZrCaQF2zeVXY-0lEnWi4xcRtVKk/s1600/birds_bees.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5467174011423864114" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhG9I28o6nJ8bgopa9nJffR8fzVr0DMkE3luP0CBveAVk_AFL0Waa_5qmQZuK4T-C5dHGbq3XKZyXL4lcENEwwzCgoQXzznSoY0geRjXhjwuHuZtHSk3ZrCaQF2zeVXY-0lEnWi4xcRtVKk/s200/birds_bees.gif" /></a><br /><div>Wow, I have been away for a while since life has all its u turns and winding roads a lot has happened since. My children are growing up so fast and with that comes more unforeseen problems, adventures, laughter and the birds and the bees talk. Yup, I thought I was gonna be this cool mom who could talk about the subject with no hesitation until I have been put to the test. I could not leave this subject to my husband who likes to joke about everything so I told him I wanted to be present. Well, I knew I had to be there for he talked about the subject with funny remarks and I keeped kicking him under the table. My son on the other hand couldn't even look at me and his face was turning red. Ok, we had a brief and calm not too much detail conversation and yet I thought I wanted to die. Oh, my word, the boy is 11 and this talk was much to soon for me but as we live in a society that has been contaminated with the world now days children grow up just to FAST!</div>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-76865018950677516452009-12-24T16:39:00.009-06:002009-12-24T18:36:46.249-06:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCfq1-XG4LrLx4GaXAYqX2gF0kzL2Cxv7r54Yx7Qe0Py3fZ7mfUvxQl1J3qIvHP1O5GZzSWAm9Xf5oIlv2gxbYSv_k8B4tz2C3PyVPIo75yItMZ5x_azjwtYwrzI6mKx76kLAU9Bqmw7Ag/s1600-h/joy-to-the-world.gif"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 88px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5418965798551747426" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCfq1-XG4LrLx4GaXAYqX2gF0kzL2Cxv7r54Yx7Qe0Py3fZ7mfUvxQl1J3qIvHP1O5GZzSWAm9Xf5oIlv2gxbYSv_k8B4tz2C3PyVPIo75yItMZ5x_azjwtYwrzI6mKx76kLAU9Bqmw7Ag/s200/joy-to-the-world.gif" /></a><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;">That night some shepherds were in the fields outside the village, guarding their flocks of sheep. Suddenly, an angel of the Lord appeared among them, and the radiance of the Lord's glory surrounded them. "Don't be afraid!" he said. "I bring you good news of great joy for everyone! The Savior-yes, the Messiah, the Lord-has been born tonight in Bethlehem, the city of David! And this is how you will recognize him: You will find a babe lying in a manger, wrapped snugly in strips of cloth!"</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;">Suddenly, the angel was joined by a vast host of others- the armies of heaven- praising God :</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;"></span><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;">"Glory to God in the highest heaven,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;">and peace on earth to all whom God favors."</span></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;">Luke 2 8-14</span></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#000099;"></span></div></div>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-49012703787624852042009-11-16T16:23:00.016-06:002009-11-18T22:11:01.304-06:00Storms<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh44ML1b4eroMuflQMFMHNdWeQhQhwqWysh7ZORg1NwLSFZrynCOjFLysmpx_ucNWxwdysjXs6l1beyLZtYt8ycqJ5VHihyphenhyphenkGfYpuiJZLCb5lJpMozvmXCwvgY-vDnRdkvxR4oW_8Mg9C1s/s1600/Europe_Lashed_By_0b22.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 140px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 93px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5405659381135631458" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh44ML1b4eroMuflQMFMHNdWeQhQhwqWysh7ZORg1NwLSFZrynCOjFLysmpx_ucNWxwdysjXs6l1beyLZtYt8ycqJ5VHihyphenhyphenkGfYpuiJZLCb5lJpMozvmXCwvgY-vDnRdkvxR4oW_8Mg9C1s/s400/Europe_Lashed_By_0b22.jpg" /></a><br /><div>Lately my life has been navigating in the middle of a storm. Being a christian we are taught to trust the Lord in all of our circumstances and yet most of the time we too become like the disciples who felt stranded on the boat and feared sinking that night. Mark 4 35-41<br />I don't trust that Jesus is with me at times like these and I lose my faith!<br /></div><div>When I first became a born again christian I had a hard time understanding when people would tell me that all is in the Lord's timing. What is his timing? God I am not ready for this! Help! Why? It's not fair! Wait, I am not ready for these things to occur and yet they come at me fast!<br />This is how I reacted during these times. Now is a little different. I roll with the punches a lot better and know that a lesson is always in order during your storm.<br /></div><div></div><div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div>Now my new struggle is with understanding the saying that God won't give you more than what you can handle. That saying is testing me to the limit! I feel like I can not handle the problem and the sadness that has come at me in the past two weeks. To see a person you love not care for themselves and try to take advantage of your kindness. </div><div> </div><div>At the beginning of this I wanted to help with a loving and giving heart and see this person grow. Now they go on their own and not accept council, advice, mentoring and love. I just pray that all goes well for them and the new baby!</div></div>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-1270389770627779962009-11-11T22:38:00.006-06:002009-11-18T20:57:29.101-06:00Feeling Down!Today has been such a crazy day for me and its finally quiet here in the house. I can finally hear myself think or even think for that matter. My children are who I love the most besides the Lord and my husband but sometimes I question if I am really the best mom for them. Do any other moms feel like this? It's like they don't respond to me. My older boy is giving me such a hard time with that attitude and from what I hear it is just beginning. God help me when he hits the teenage years!<br /><br />Then I went to the chiropractor because I have been having lots of lower back pain and he told me that I need to lose the weight because its affecting my knees. I am very petite but I have gained a lot of weight over the years especially with the pregnancies. So, this will be take 1000 in my struggle to lose the WEIGHT!purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-16594498727340848292009-11-01T13:51:00.006-06:002009-11-01T22:47:07.392-06:00H1N1 Part 2Things here at home have gotten worse with this H1N1. My boy's cough has gotten worse and now he is wheezing, so he was put on Flovent. The doctor said if he doesn't improve or gets a new fever it might have turned into pneumonia. Then I woke up yesterday feeling achy and my throat was killing me! When we got to the pediatrician's office she notice how sick I looked. She was nice to check me out too. She gave me a strep test and it was negative. Then she said I might have gotten the H1N1 so she prescribed me the Tamiflu.<br /><br />When I got home I had a headache, chills, aches, fever and just wanted to sleep. My husband was great help and took the kids to get some movies so I could relax. He then made me some soup and it was good. About an hour later I began vomiting. I thought I was going to die! He called our doctor and she proceeded to tell him that I might be having an allergic reaction to the Tamiflu therefore to stop it immediately. What the heck? I thought this was suppose to make me feel better!<br /><br />This morning I feel a little better but my head still hurts and my body is achy. Now my husband is the one feeling sick. To be continued.........purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-14491399641535945502009-10-30T20:09:00.003-05:002009-10-30T21:05:17.074-05:00The H1N1 has invaded our home!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhD1i46NjPU6HQuSz0L4-xLOnV6LrZNlEr69H5T6TS8XRMMd8xeOfrh-jU8NEk-zn4CYSuXwF-Pt5CLNskceD90yQ9xGCG63B2iAINBipOQ0agDcG1YNAenEyyePECMg9xRaRXCwYxdFdTi/s1600-h/images+flu.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 102px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 121px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5398572656418651618" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhD1i46NjPU6HQuSz0L4-xLOnV6LrZNlEr69H5T6TS8XRMMd8xeOfrh-jU8NEk-zn4CYSuXwF-Pt5CLNskceD90yQ9xGCG63B2iAINBipOQ0agDcG1YNAenEyyePECMg9xRaRXCwYxdFdTi/s200/images+flu.jpg" /></a> <span style="font-family:georgia;">All over the news all you hear is about the H1N1 and how dangerous it is. Well the flu has invaded my house and my two little ones were the ones that got sick. By the grace of God, to them it was like a really bad cold.<br />My boy got the most fever and was not given the Tamiflu because he had pass the first 48 hours with no medical care. I honestly just thought he had a cold but since the fever was not letting up we went to see the doctor. At first when he told me it was positive I was like <em>OH NO! </em>I tried not to freak out and stay calm.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">He began to explain to me about the other family members that were at greater risk. I then began to get worried for </span><span style="font-family:georgia;">my husband and daughter. My husband has a history of asthma and my daughter was premature. </span><span style="font-family:georgia;">They were the ones most at risk, so my husband was put on the medicine but my daughter was not. The doctor just told me to keep and eye on her if any of the symptoms showed up. The next day we were back at the doctor because she was now the one with the fever. She was then put on the Tamiflu and is getting better.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><span style="font-family:georgia;">My advice to all the moms is stay calm and get medical attention as soon as you can. Since my boy got sick over the weekend I just waited for the office to open on Monday so I kind of do feel guilty for waiting so long. So follow your motherly instinct and be alert to the signs. Again, it is very important to not freak out if someone in your household does get sick. Use lots of hand sanitizer and masks.</span>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-59963090837113411502009-10-21T22:48:00.007-05:002009-10-21T23:38:13.445-05:00For YouI watch you sleep and want to kiss you.<br /><br />Your face is the same and yet it looks so much older.<br /><br />The years have passed, I can see them on you.<br /><br />Oh, how I still love you!<br /><br />Our teenage love has blossomed to more than words can say.<br /><br />My life with you has been a whirlwind.<br /><br />Love!<br /><br />Passion!<br /><br />Friendship!<br /><br />Even Hate!<br /><br />But as you sleep here next to me I still know that I love you.<br /><br />You are the one that gives me air.<br /><br />You are the one that calms my storm.<br /><br />You are the one that I love!purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-72719335128433262082009-10-15T08:58:00.012-05:002009-10-15T10:17:01.965-05:00Embracing My ClimbBeing a mom is my full time job but there are times in my life that I think about the what ifs. Life in general is a constant battle with oneself and others around you. A family is layered with multiple personalities, problems, triumphs, sadness, struggles and at times chaotic. I want to just give up and run away where I can just be the woman in my what ifs!<br /><br />Then remorse sets in and I<em> comprehend</em> that no one can Love my family like I do! No one can tend to them like I do. I realize that I am wife and mother to this family.<br /><br />So, the other day my children and I watched the Hannah Montana movie and that song The Climb resonated in my heart. Sometimes you get a reality check from the least expected source but it is always at the right timing!<br /><br />That is why I know that it should not be about what is waiting for me on the other side but on how I climb my mountain. I have to embrace myself, my motherhood, my life!purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-62120718138124563142009-09-21T23:50:00.007-05:002009-09-22T00:28:49.877-05:00Autumn of LoveLife at my house has been complicated! Things here have been somewhat crazy and that's why I have been away for a while. My patience and faith have been tested. <br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq7yyoHAqpQEUI9FRAp6AOS2GUaS4qtmg2HdyJ6XWfNoTisVlQ6Tm1fC2F78yRYkJWuHD3seUREIFPOSHy65BOhsfCMPcsAEo0b77k_ycJlgukRNnGGAXgJip4tBaEWUAiFucOE0ca5V3j/s1600-h/Autumn+Leaves.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq7yyoHAqpQEUI9FRAp6AOS2GUaS4qtmg2HdyJ6XWfNoTisVlQ6Tm1fC2F78yRYkJWuHD3seUREIFPOSHy65BOhsfCMPcsAEo0b77k_ycJlgukRNnGGAXgJip4tBaEWUAiFucOE0ca5V3j/s320/Autumn+Leaves.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5384151580375231618" /></a><br />On a different note, tomorrow is the beginning of Autumn and it is my favorite season! I love the temperature, the way the trees look in all their splendid colors, having fun apple picking with my kids, and knowing that God has created this beautiful season just for me.<br /><br />All my children, I mean just my two oldest have been born on this season. My baby girl was supposed to be born in late October but she was premature. As you can see, fall has a special place in my heart. Also, my husband and I began our friendship during this time and is still going strong!purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-44600937364306188102009-09-03T16:24:00.001-05:002009-10-22T15:19:31.892-05:00Where is my DNA?It has been a crazy few weeks trying to adjust to the new schedule. School has started and homework battles began. I'm wishing that my studious Gene has been inherited to my child and that is just dormant. I feel like the little sucker just laughs at me every time I get upset about the homework. I want to shake my kids brain and make that little monster come out and apologize for all the grief it has caused! <br /><a href="http://view.picapp.com/default.aspx?term=dna&iid=275115" target="_blank"><img src="http://cdn.picapp.com/ftp/Images/0271/988abc9c-5d42-46e4-b4f9-fa1355241204.jpg?adImageId=2818918&imageId=275115" width="234" height="352" border="0" alt="Boy Looking at DNA Model"/></a><script type="text/javascript" src="http://cdn.pis.picapp.com/IamProd/PicAppPIS/JavaScript/PisV4.js"></script>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-17841804216324875432009-08-24T08:44:00.000-05:002009-09-03T17:16:29.126-05:00my body is achy
<br />my soul is hurting
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<br />my head is buzzing
<br />my heart is thumping
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<br />all these feelings all these sounds
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<br />leave me alone i want to keep sleeping
<br />the night has turned to day
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<br />another day of the same old monotony
<br /> purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-7532977661415656282009-08-19T09:08:00.000-05:002009-08-19T09:37:47.147-05:00New DayWow, I can't believe the new school year is already here. Today I woke up to the sound of a brand new alarm clock/ticking bomb! Last night we opened it and looked over the instructions. According to them the beeping sound would increase gradually but they failed to mention how much it sounded like a bomb. It scared the crap out of us!<a href="http://view.picapp.com/default.aspx?term=alarm&iid=302657" target="_blank"><img src="http://cdn.picapp.com/ftp/Images/0299/c2b1dfb2-5b24-45a9-b468-819af1aad9f6.jpg?adImageId=2264367&imageId=302657" width="234" height="155" border="0" alt="Woman turning off alarm clock"/></a><script type="text/javascript" src="http://cdn.pis.picapp.com/IamProd/PicAppPIS/JavaScript/PisV4.js"></script>purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-32007976309526913542009-08-14T23:06:00.000-05:002009-08-14T23:26:05.371-05:00Confused about blogging.I've been trying to find out more on how to blog but I'm somewhat confused. I need blogging for dummies! Anyways, I'll give it a shot. Its late here at home and I'm trying to gather my thoughts in how to make this work. I had a hard day and I'm tired but not sleepy.<br /><br />Just today I went to see<br />the breeze come to me<br /><br />I felt my hair wiggle with swirls and giggles<br /><br />My children laughing and playing<br />and like always not sharing<br /><br />When will it stop?<br />All the bickering and<br />crying<br /><br />Soon I hope<br />before the next summer breezepurpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4198677804576669778.post-75763794785301841742009-08-13T15:40:00.000-05:002009-08-13T15:47:21.262-05:00Hi, I'm new to the blogging game.Hello, to anyone and everyone who comes across this blog. I'm new at this and hope I can learn and experience this new world to me to the fullest. I have been meaning to do this for a while but never got the nerve to do it. Now it's my time to do something different and not be so afraid of new things or the what ifs.purpleorchid22http://www.blogger.com/profile/07783761123332256977noreply@blogger.com2